I'm going to Ireland!! Yeah baby!! Finally, after 15 years of wanting to go, I'm going to make it a reality!! And what's even better, I'm meeting Ash there!! CAN'T WAIT!!
I saw the season finale of Lost yesterday, OH MY GOD. I just love the whole Desmond-Penny story, it's so romantic and unreal (well, it's the stuff of fairytales).
My friend Jimena and I attended a very interesting art exposition a few days ago, the artist is a colleague of Jimena’s and a very good one too. I was very pleased with one particular piece, representing two very different women, one was naked from the waist up, with red hair and holding a glass of red wine in one hand and the other was completely covered by a black shawl, showing only her eyes. I though it was one of the sexiest paintings I have seen in a very long time, totally hot and vibrant. During the exposition we where treated to a few glasses of “cava” (sparkling wine) and chocolate (most excelent combination).
During our visit, my grandmother called!! I was so happy to hear her voice, I miss my family so much I don’t know how I gathered enough “cojones” to leave everything behind and come here in the first place.Anyway, after a couple of hours, we decided to pay a visit to the “Champañería” and get a bite to eat and some more cava (there’s always room for more). After that, we decided it was time to go home, being a “schoolnight” and all… hahaha!!
Something has happened in the last few days… I don’t know how to explain it, but something has changed in me, deep inside my soul but visible to the people around me. I’ve noticed people smiling at me a lot more and noticing me, wanting to catch me eye, know what I mean? It’s strange, but at the same time, it feels nice. I’ve been through a difficult time in the last few weeks, having to accept change and letting go of many things. I have let go of the things and people that where causing pain or holding me back, I have let go of most of my bad habits and have accepted change as an inevitable part of life.
Some people love us when they need something from us, we think in time they will change but they never do, most don’t in my experience. They come in and out of our life always expecting us to be there when they need us and we give them our time and our love, without asking anything in return.
But there comes a time when we must let go of these people, who act on us like parasites, sucking the life out, leaving us with a feeling of exahustion and unending sadness. But all is well in the world, and I'm free of parasites at last.
Oh.. and in training for all the delicious beer and ales I'll be sampling in Belfast!! A HUEVO!!
May 31, 2008
May 28, 2008
Never Again
I just found this song, it's Kelly Clarkson's... not my favorite singer, but this particular song says everything I've felt two times in my life... a looooong time ago. I said it out loud, meant it and never looked back.
Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Does it hurt
To know i'll never be there?
No more guardian angel, no more empty words to listen to. Never again. I'm free.
Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Does it hurt
To know i'll never be there?
No more guardian angel, no more empty words to listen to. Never again. I'm free.
May 19, 2008
Y la vida sigue...
Si, asi es. La vida sigue.
Ya habia andado por este camino hace tiempo y no aprendí la lección. He tropezado con la misma piedra pero ahora en lugar de piedra fue asi como tropezar con una montaña del trastazo que me he dado.
Hace muchos años entregué la mitad de mi corazón a una persona que quería mucho. Con el tiempo, llegué a necesitar esa parte de mi corazón pero nunca se la pedí. Ya la recuperé y ahora ya estoy lista para lo que venga.
Ahora si, con todo el dolor de mi alma, llego el momento de decir adiós.
I'll see ya in another life brother!
Ya habia andado por este camino hace tiempo y no aprendí la lección. He tropezado con la misma piedra pero ahora en lugar de piedra fue asi como tropezar con una montaña del trastazo que me he dado.
Hace muchos años entregué la mitad de mi corazón a una persona que quería mucho. Con el tiempo, llegué a necesitar esa parte de mi corazón pero nunca se la pedí. Ya la recuperé y ahora ya estoy lista para lo que venga.
Ahora si, con todo el dolor de mi alma, llego el momento de decir adiós.
I'll see ya in another life brother!
September 17, 2007
It's been a long time...
It's been a long time since my last post... I guess I've been busy living life, enjoying every minute of it.
I've been reflecting on my life in the past few years and I've noticed, I've come a long way. I still remember the time when I left for college, I was only seventeen!! I had no clue about anything, which was a shock to me, initially... you know what I mean? Before I got there, I thought I knew everything I needed to know about everything... and well... it turned out, I had no idea.. none.
Everything that has passed, the events that have taken place since then have helped me grow into an adult. At times, it was painful, at other times, it was amazingly wonderful.
Remembering how I got thru the sad parts I realized I did it because I was never alone, even though at times, I thought I was. There where always friends around, good people, funny people that where always there to share a laugh, to hugh me whenever I need it, to acompany me in my most darkest hour... because there where some very dark moments, you know how you have to hit the lowest point before you get a grip and star climbing back up again? I'm sure you know what I'm talking about. I am blessed, even if I didn't realize it then, I was always surrounded by people who loved me. It was hard being away from my family, since they have always been so important to me... I felt so lonely without them, but I met great people, great souls that became my extended family. I am so thankful for them, I love them with all my heart and will never ever be able to repay them for so many moments of joy and I must admit, the greatest "borracheras" of my life.
I've become a stronger person because of the love that has always been around me. Now that I'm preparing to move to another country, following a dream I've had for a few years now, I can't help but feel sad and a little nervous about such a big change. I'm leaving behind so many good friends, my family and my dear Angel, whose love I will take with me forever. I'm a bit scared, but I know I'm going in the right direction.
Now I know that I'm never going to be alone, there are friends to be made, old friends to be met and love to spread all over the world. I know I will miss many that I leave behind, but I'm sure my friends, my family and my Angel know that they have a piece of my heart in their hands, that's forever theirs. And what's in the piece of my heart that is left? Everyone I love, and there's a little space for the ones I will meet and love in the future. My heart expands, grows and has unlimited love to give.
I've been reflecting on my life in the past few years and I've noticed, I've come a long way. I still remember the time when I left for college, I was only seventeen!! I had no clue about anything, which was a shock to me, initially... you know what I mean? Before I got there, I thought I knew everything I needed to know about everything... and well... it turned out, I had no idea.. none.
Everything that has passed, the events that have taken place since then have helped me grow into an adult. At times, it was painful, at other times, it was amazingly wonderful.
Remembering how I got thru the sad parts I realized I did it because I was never alone, even though at times, I thought I was. There where always friends around, good people, funny people that where always there to share a laugh, to hugh me whenever I need it, to acompany me in my most darkest hour... because there where some very dark moments, you know how you have to hit the lowest point before you get a grip and star climbing back up again? I'm sure you know what I'm talking about. I am blessed, even if I didn't realize it then, I was always surrounded by people who loved me. It was hard being away from my family, since they have always been so important to me... I felt so lonely without them, but I met great people, great souls that became my extended family. I am so thankful for them, I love them with all my heart and will never ever be able to repay them for so many moments of joy and I must admit, the greatest "borracheras" of my life.
I've become a stronger person because of the love that has always been around me. Now that I'm preparing to move to another country, following a dream I've had for a few years now, I can't help but feel sad and a little nervous about such a big change. I'm leaving behind so many good friends, my family and my dear Angel, whose love I will take with me forever. I'm a bit scared, but I know I'm going in the right direction.
Now I know that I'm never going to be alone, there are friends to be made, old friends to be met and love to spread all over the world. I know I will miss many that I leave behind, but I'm sure my friends, my family and my Angel know that they have a piece of my heart in their hands, that's forever theirs. And what's in the piece of my heart that is left? Everyone I love, and there's a little space for the ones I will meet and love in the future. My heart expands, grows and has unlimited love to give.
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