Happy Times

I'm going to Ireland!! Yeah baby!! Finally, after 15 years of wanting to go, I'm going to make it a reality!! And what's even better, I'm meeting Ash there!! CAN'T WAIT!!

I saw the season finale of Lost yesterday, OH MY GOD. I just love the whole Desmond-Penny story, it's so romantic and unreal (well, it's the stuff of fairytales).

My friend Jimena and I attended a very interesting art exposition a few days ago, the artist is a colleague of Jimena’s and a very good one too. I was very pleased with one particular piece, representing two very different women, one was naked from the waist up, with red hair and holding a glass of red wine in one hand and the other was completely covered by a black shawl, showing only her eyes. I though it was one of the sexiest paintings I have seen in a very long time, totally hot and vibrant. During the exposition we where treated to a few glasses of “cava” (sparkling wine) and chocolate (most excelent combination).

During our visit, my grandmother called!! I was so happy to hear her voice, I miss my family so much I don’t know how I gathered enough “cojones” to leave everything behind and come here in the first place.Anyway, after a couple of hours, we decided to pay a visit to the “Champañería” and get a bite to eat and some more cava (there’s always room for more). After that, we decided it was time to go home, being a “schoolnight” and all… hahaha!!

Something has happened in the last few days… I don’t know how to explain it, but something has changed in me, deep inside my soul but visible to the people around me. I’ve noticed people smiling at me a lot more and noticing me, wanting to catch me eye, know what I mean? It’s strange, but at the same time, it feels nice. I’ve been through a difficult time in the last few weeks, having to accept change and letting go of many things. I have let go of the things and people that where causing pain or holding me back, I have let go of most of my bad habits and have accepted change as an inevitable part of life.

Some people love us when they need something from us, we think in time they will change but they never do, most don’t in my experience. They come in and out of our life always expecting us to be there when they need us and we give them our time and our love, without asking anything in return.

But there comes a time when we must let go of these people, who act on us like parasites, sucking the life out, leaving us with a feeling of exahustion and unending sadness. But all is well in the world, and I'm free of parasites at last.

Oh.. and in training for all the delicious beer and ales I'll be sampling in Belfast!! A HUEVO!!

Never Again

I just found this song, it's Kelly Clarkson's... not my favorite singer, but this particular song says everything I've felt two times in my life... a looooong time ago. I said it out loud, meant it and never looked back.

Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Does it hurt
To know i'll never be there?

No more guardian angel, no more empty words to listen to. Never again. I'm free.

Y la vida sigue...

Si, asi es. La vida sigue.

Ya habia andado por este camino hace tiempo y no aprendí la lección. He tropezado con la misma piedra pero ahora en lugar de piedra fue asi como tropezar con una montaña del trastazo que me he dado.

Hace muchos años entregué la mitad de mi corazón a una persona que quería mucho. Con el tiempo, llegué a necesitar esa parte de mi corazón pero nunca se la pedí. Ya la recuperé y ahora ya estoy lista para lo que venga.

Ahora si, con todo el dolor de mi alma, llego el momento de decir adiós.

I'll see ya in another life brother!